You're just something to miss...

Felt like posting summat, though don't know exactly what I have to say.
These past couple of weeks have been rather up and down...I really don't know how to look at them tbh.
Things have been said and done to make me think things.
But of course, my inner doubts rule me into thinking that this could possibly be the most absurd thing on the face of the earth.
Why me and etc?
Meh.
Not to sound totally immature and high-schooly...it is more or less me waiting for the words, and if those words never come, then being content in waiting.
Not that anything I've said makes sense.


My birthday turned out well weird, but here I am, another year older I guess.
Halloween came and went with a bang, as threw a rather sucessful bash and even dressed up as a bag of jellybeans to boot.
Been a bit lonely I reckon, and a bit impatient as well.
Why impatient you might ask?

I guess it's because there are those times where things get to you more than others.
It just seems like I'm sitting here wasting away, waiting for things to happen.
And these things I am waiting for seem like they are right in my reach sometimes, and other times they seem like an impossible dream.
I know I shouldn't be discouraged, but am very frustrated at mo.
Whenever I try to communicate with people about my indecision in life, all I get is nagativity and opposition.
They tell me that I need to do things instead of sitting and talking about them.
The thing is that I don't just sit and talk about them.
I just don't know where to begin or even which direction to look in.
As I look back on things, I see that I have been relativley unsucessful in my endeavours.
This gives me an inherently defeatist attitude...of which I am well aware is not a positive thing.

But meh...if.